Due date.

Today is (was, would have been) my due date, and I'm pretty sad. I didn't think it would hit me this hard, but here it is, and it has.

Comments

[Operation Pink Herring]

I'm so sorry, Alice.

[Yolanda]

It's okay, that it has. There's no shame in it or weakness. Just pure, human you. And grief is like that. It comes, sometimes suddenly. Leaves stubbornly. But it does leave. And it does stop coming.

[BrooklynGIrl]

I'm so sorry.

[JachiCue]

I am thinking of you today. You're entitled to feel what you're feeling.

I won't bore you with my story, just know that I'm thinking of you today.

[Julie]

Alice,I love your blog but haven't commented much, but I wanted to delurk to tell you how much I appreciate your writing and to send you many hugs and well wishes. I have 3 of those grim "anniversaries" now, and while it does get easier each year, I will always wonder "what if...?" (it helps immensely now that I have my sweet little one to hug through those sad days!)Our thoughts are with you....

[Ruth]

I'm so sorry, Alice.

[heidi]

I'm so, so sorry. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way.

[Leia]

I know no words can ease the pain but still I'm sorry you're hurting. Just because you never met the little soul doesn't mean it wasn't real. I'm not the praying type but I will send some positive thoughts your way. Take it easy today and let's hope tomorrow is a little bit better.

[Lacey Jane]

wow. already. that's so sad. and scary. I think about my baby every day. Even though I lost him 6.5 weeks ago. I am not looking forward to May 1st.

[Susan]

The end of November was when I was due for the first baby I miscarried 9 years ago. I think it's pretty normal to feel sad about it. Take care of yourself....

[A]

I'm so, so sorry. I'm sure mine will hit me that way too, come June 12th...

[Courtney]

It's okay to be sad. I'm sorry. :(

[Jane]

Weird, isn't it? I just found out this morning that a not so nice guy in the cube next to me? Yeah, his son was born on the due date from my first pregnancy (which miscarried). Even if he was my favorite guy, it still would've felt like someone stabbed me a little.May this day go quickly.

[Catizhere]

Oh, Alice.... Thinking of you today.

[marta]

don't mean to go all religious on you, but this is my favorite mourning music:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E226NpTWTOk&feature=related

[Sonja]

*sigh*I'm so sorry.

[Laura]

It is so very painful. After more than 20 years, I still remember the babies that I lost. The empty hurt isn't there anymore - just the "what ifs". I do firmly believe that had I not lived through the lows as I've grown older, the highs would not seem so sweet.

[Kaza]

Mine hit me like a ton of bricks. So did Christmas. I found it hit in waves off and on, and those days were both hard. But I will say that this year, when it would have been the baby's 1st birthday, I didn't feel that way. I do get a bit melancholy now and then, but it's nowhere near as intense.

Lots of HUGS to you!

[merlotmom]

I'm sorry. Try to do something that makes you smile today. Even if only for a moment.

[cartoongoddess]

Thinking of you. Much love and strength.

[MemeGRL]

Thinking of you and the littlest one on this day. Hang in there. These days are wallops. Treat yourself kindly this weekend.

[suburbancorrespondent]

It's hard to take, I know!

[Jennifer]

Thinking of you, Alice. Take good care.

[Jen]

I'm so sorry. I've been there too. I'll be thinking of your little one today.

[jenn]

I am so very sorry. Nothing any of us say will make that hurt go away. My due date has come and gone, and also the anniversary of the day we lost the baby..Both were very very hard days for me as well. As you can see, your not alone. Each time I read comments from something like this I am amazed at how many women/families go through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.